Neighbors

I didn't want to see the hair on the calves of her legs or notice the too tight denim capris she was sporting as we stood there on the dividing line of my front yard where our tall grass meets her neatly manicured lawn. My girls, however, had seen Mrs. B out with her dog and had begged to say hello. So there I stood as they made a big fuss over her furry ankle biter.

Mrs. B is a teacher now at Sissy's school and I've lived next door to her for over a decade and yet I'd be hard pressed to write a paragraph with our conversations over the years. There was a time when I was the young twenty-something living in the run down house beside hers. Of course back then I saw it differently. Through idealistic eyes I saw a house with potential and filled up with my dreams.

Back then she was a poodle haired housewife with a couple of kids. Now the situation is reversed. Her children are grown. I feel awkward when I talk to her. I ramble about how I'm having my oldest read books from the library this summer and how she fusses and says, “Summer is for fun.” We laugh but I really have nothing to say and just feel uncomfortable. I want to run into my house and put that baby down for nap, send the girls to the playroom while I shower in peace and listen to my Jodi Picoult book on cd I got for myself the other day.

Finally, I couldn't take it another second. Told the girls to come on and leave Mrs. B alone. I hauled tail inside with my young'ns in tow but the thing that's sticking in my mind is the biggest compliment Mrs. B ever gave me was just now when she said I make it look easy, this being a mother thing that is. Ha! Right.

Now That's What I Like

F R I E N D S

After rehashing that harrowing memory of Missy's party, I need a break from the toy biz. These days I'm not doing parties anymore and I have other thoughts on my mind of course.

I've always been the sort of girl people either love or they hate. Usually there isn't much in between. I grew up poor as a church mouse and learned by watching my mama what not to do in life. The one thing I didn't learn was how to keep friendships.

You know how when you see some pretty girl on the news has vanished and all her friends and family say how everyone loved her and she didn't have an enemy in the world? Well, should I ever disappear ain't a soul in this fool town that can say that about me - not even my own mama!

One of my pet peeves is when people don't question what their part is when a friendship fizzles. I have often wondered what it is about me that either sends people to me like flies to shit or makes 'em run for the hills.

I know what I look for when I want a friend. I have it fairly narrowed down after thirty something years.

I like someone I can be quiet with. Now it's one thing if you haven't seen each other for awhile and you have a mess of things to share; however, if there has to be constant chatter and especially if I'm the one starting most of these conversations, I'll soon grow bored. I hate the feeling of having to be on all the time.

This is probably one of the best things about Bubba, my husband. We can sit quietly in each others' presence for an eternity but this is also sometimes an annoyance and why I have and need girlfriends. And I'm not talking about him right now anyway.

If I'm to remain friends with someone, they better make me laugh. Now they don't have to be a stand up comic mind you but I like someone that has some wit about them and isn't dull and too serious. If you can't be funny, the least you can do is laugh at yourself. Major bonus points for intelligence.

Over the years I have quickly weeded out the moochers from my world. I'm not a mooch myself and I like to give when I can. I wouldn't do something for a friend expecting reciprocity but it's nice to know they would do the same for me.

Lastly, a friend should be someone you feel comfortable calling even when you don't have anything to say. I suppose trustworthiness and honesty are also important traits but I don't a want a pal to be so honest that my feelings get hurt.

When I think about the things I've done wrong in the past to push people away it's usually that I wasn't myself when I met them. Maybe I held back or bit my tongue. Maybe I repeated something I shouldn't have. One person reportedly found me to be too negative. Another was offended when she read my online journal (that I never showed her but duh, it's the internet) and found out what I really thought of her. 

I've pushed people away for seeming too needy or too eager. I've pushed away friends for being boring or constantly using me as a sounding board without seeming very interested in me as a person. And sometimes friends have been phased out simply because I never see them. 

Oh, friendship is a sticky, fickle thing, isn't it? Kind of like selling those novelties actually.

Missy Pulls a Fast One

Y'all ain't gonna believe this when I get through but Missy seemed like a good ol' gal when I met her at JaeRae's. She had a big smile and a loud personality. She had that rode hard and put up wet look about her but I ain't one to judge.

Missy was a teacher in the city and recently divorced. She lived in an old brick house over in my old stomping grounds. It was a neighborhood with sidewalks and a little bit of character but was just a hop, skip and a jump from the ghetto.

I had to park on the street and haul my goods up her cement steps and into her small living room unlike parties I'd done for married ladies who'd had husbands that would help me. I set my card table up in the corner and began decorating it with a thick red tablecloth and candles that melted into a deliciously scented body oil.

Before I knew it, other teacher friends of Missy were filtering in and filling up her sectional faster than a church pew on Easter Sunday. They were squeezed in tight because her house was itty bitty but they didn't seem to mind. Everyone was in fine spirits. 

After a quick icebreaker, I went around the room with my vibrating massage glove and oil, letting each woman feel the nubs on their forearm. Told 'em to imagine how good it would feel if their special someone used it on their back. The ladies were eating it up along with my fuzzy navel flavored lube that they licked off of penis shaped pencil toppers. Everyone was giggling and sucking down cocktails.

There is always one woman who has to be the center of the room and at Missy's party it was Charlotte. Char, as her friends called her, was a terribly thin woman in her twenties who seemed to have a fondness for patchouli, piercings and interesting tattoos as well as a vast knowledge of romance enhancers. She seemed already three sheets to the wind when she walked through the door, heckling me before I even got started and then interrupting my little presentation countless times to ask questions and ultimately, and of course, not ordering a damn thing.

As the evening wrapped up and I began taking orders privately in Missy's back bedroom, I overheard Char talking about coke and I don't mean the fizzy kind. I soon realized they were snorting lines in the kitchen. I was completely flabbergasted having always held teachers in high esteem though I surely understand now the need for chemical alteration after spending too much time with children.

The women became a bit distracted and Missy didn't seem interested at all in settling up with me. She instead wanted to head downtown and hit some bars with her friends. She promised to call me the next day so we could wrap up. I knew this was a bad idea but agreed because her friends, with the exception of Char, had all ordered extravagantly and paid me so I was confident I would make a profit off the party. In fact, I already knew Missy was entitled to $100 in hostess gifts.

Over the following week or so, I tried repeatedly to close Missy's party to no avail. She would not return my calls or respond to my e-mails. Ultimately, I decided to submit the party orders so her guests who had paid would get their products in a timely fashion. I sent Missy a gift certificate for the $100 in hostess gifts she was entitled to and wrote her a letter thanking her for hosting.

Then the calls came and the scathing messages. It was like I'd pissed in her cornflakes! To say Missy was displeased and ungrateful would be an understatement. She had been waiting for payday on the first of the month – didn't I know teachers are only paid monthly? - and was livid that I had gone ahead and closed it never you mind the fact that her guests were surely wondering where I'd gone with their massagers, oils and lube. Missy was hollerin' like a stuck pig but I wasn't going to have any of that. I sent her one final message expressing my apology that she felt she had been cheated and left it at that. And I can't tell you how glad I am that my kids don't go to her school! Something to be said for moving out to the country.

My eyes had been opened wide by this experience and I learned never to let a hostess talk me into breaking my rules again. I also began to prejudge the people who booked parties with me just a little bit more. Judging a book by its cover? Not such a bad thing after all and that was the lesson that Missy taught me. 

JaeRae's Shindig

It was my very first party with TYS and I was about as nervous as a long tailed cat in a room full of rocking chairs. I bought a fresh little skirt and a cute top and did my hair and make-up with care. I wanted to look like a real professional, like I knew what the hell I was talking about.

JaeRae lives in a fancy neighborhood near a big golf course with homes that could easily swallow four of my own modest one. All I could see were dollar signs as I planned to sell my goods. I came up with a few silly games to entertain the ladies, made up lots of goody bags and  door prizes and even practiced my whole spiel in front of my husband a few times to make sure I sounded smooth when I described the products.

My leader had trained me well. She had mentioned numerous times that children were not permitted when you're doing these parties. Who really wants to explain why adults would need silicone and jelly phallic shaped toys to a kid? Nasty, right? I had told JaeRae this but at the last minute her husband said he would not be leaving the house but he would keep the kids upstairs. Would I be assertive and insist she make arrangements for her brood? What if she canceled the whole thing? Oh hell no! I wasn't willing to take that chance.

Oh the lure of easy money. I made her promise me she'd keep them upstairs. The thought of them busting into the man cave didn't help my anxiety level a bit so I started drinking straight away.

Quite a few tequila shots later, it was more than a bit difficult not to slur my words as I passed around the lotions and oils and edible accoutrements one might need for a night of somewhat sticky seduction. I quickly realized that my knowledge of the products didn't matter a bit. Most the women there already knew more than I did about this stuff. One woman after another would tell how the Prolong Him Creme, Labido Lotion or the Vajayjay Shave Gel had improved their marital relations. The items virtually sold themselves and I wasn't too shocked when the women would march into the private "shopping booth" (JaeRae's storage room) and order high end items like they were simply replacing their mismatched Tupperware.

Everyone seemed to have a great time and there wasn't a girl there that wasn't willing to pass that double sided dong around or share some intimate secret that would make a whore blush (no one there did though). No minors were corrupted and even though I was sweating like a cheerleader in the boys' locker room, I kept my composure just long enough to take orders from everyone there and even booked five parties! My profit margin was looking really good. I thanked JaeRae with the knowledge that I'd easily make my quota and earn that kit.

As I packed up my novelties in my rolling toolbox and headed out of that neighborhood with a big glass of water, a wad of cash and a dozen credit card slips, I was so proud of myself. I drove home high on success and making plans for how I was going to spend that money I'd just made in a few short hours of partying.

Little did I know that the next party I did would be very different but I had the enthusiasm of a new bride and the naiveté to go with it.

How It All Began

My name is Lila Jane Rigby. I live in the valley of the quaint little Southern town where I grew up. Our small town is surrounded by mountains which somehow protect us from the harsh cruel world and allow us to live in a false reality filled with niceties and people who can talk endlessly without ever saying anything.

I myself am a housewife with a hard working husband. We've been married for what seems like forever. I met him when I was practically a child. I fell in love with him mostly I think now because I knew my family would not approve. I was shy, insecure and drawn to him. What I lacked in confidence, I made up for in my willingness to make boys love me. Our fast friendship quickly turned to romance when I showed him just how fast I was. He was "in love" and I got a quick kick in the ass that put me out of my family's house.

The years have gone by faster than dandelions can multiply in my front yard. My aforementioned skills have kept him loyal and provided me a simple life and three beautiful children: Sassy, Spunky and Sissy. Why yes, they are all girls. I'm lucky like that.

My days have become somewhat monotonous and more than a bit mediocre. I raise my girls up by hand. Know what that means? Well, it means I do it all myself mostly (that man of mine works a lot!) and I'm not a fan of the Time Out Movement so many other mothers are these days.

Money is always tight. Gas prices rise like the humidity in July. Groceries sure ain't cheap if you want to eat the fresh stuff. I'm the sort of girl that if you give me a dollar, I'll spend five. My husband, on the other hand, is tighter than bark on a tree. This dilemma had brought us to a sort of an impasse and I knew I had to do something with a quickness to improve our situation. In a town where you will surely pass more churches than you could ever shake a stick at, I decided the thing to do would be sell sex toys, marriage enhancers if you're a godly lady.

I knew this girl named Dierdre who had done it. I met her through an organization for gals with small children called Mother's Milk. Dierdre bragged to me how lucrative selling these toys could be and how it even made it possible for her to afford a cleaning lady. I was sold!

She distributed through a company called Deviant Delights. I researched this company and found it not to be to my liking. Most of the DD reps reminded me of the sort of ladies that lurked around truck stops. You know, they were a little rough around the edges. And I didn't like the fact that you had to deliver the packages yourself post party as opposed to drop shipments at the hostess' home. I also didn't like that attendance at a monthly meeting at a local sleazy diner was mandatory.

Now being the greedy sort I am, my decision was made that Deviant Delights wasn't for me when I learned distributors only earned 30% and had to pay for the hostess gift out of pocket. After some investigation, I chose a company that promised a 40% profit on all toys sold. I found a rep through my friend Beatrice. She lived in Michigan but all our interactions could be easily done by phone or online. The company was called To Your Satisfaction or TYS for short.

I had to sell $1000 worth of products within three months to earn my kit at a discounted price but I knew I'd have no problem convincing other women in search of satisfaction to give me their milk money. In fact, the "toys", as they're discreetly referred to, seemed to sell themselves. I've grown quite outgoing as an adult and I hardly ever meet a stranger so saying "apply this to your clitoris" in front of a crowd of women I didn't hardly know wasn't going to be an issue for me.

I quickly convinced my dearest old girlfriend, JaeRae, to host my very first party. She accepted joyfully and I anticipated a great crowd.

I'll tell y'all all about that party tomorrow but I'll tell you this right now, Dierdre was dead on about it being a quick money maker. Selling sex toys to horny housewives was easier than I was in high school.